Monday, April 9, Royal hypnagogia. - definitely classified

"They'll think I'm crazy or else making it up. Sometimes I think I'm crazy or making it up." Marissa Ryan


Monday, April 9, 2018

Afternoon nap, quick hypnagogic visions. A Church dining hall. Three candlesticks. On the left is a Monarch, unknown. To the right with blonde hair is Princess Diana.

A row of white horses with a red saddle. A voice, "Monarchy is with you."




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Thursday, April 19, 2018

I was with my spiritual guide. Someone whom I sensed was the Chinese Emperor was approaching on a television screen. He was wearing a yellow robe with green shoulder ornamental decorations and he was wearing his hair tied back in a bun. I threw a dart at him quickly, for some reason. This dart is the DMT mechanical elves showing technology, again. The dart was round and carved and it had one point longer than the others to give the thrower extra leverage. That's engineering.
The archaic dart which performs more like a ninja star is a set of snakes intertwined within a circle. That represents Royal Family. The longest snake is the Monarch

I was in a huge room. There were people walking around. My head was resting on my stepmother's right lap as she was seated cross legged on the floor. Her arms were over me protectively.


Today is April 19. That's 4/19, 49 is a significant number in Chinese culture. Sometimes in dreams 313 or 303 is a reference to 33 and 419 in this case is a reference to 49.


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Another time the mechanical elves showed me technology was, years ago, I had a dream of a Jewish scroll. It had five strings tied to one string tied to a tapered scroll. That would be the more efficient way of doing it. A better way to preserve the scroll. Soon after I had the dream, I was at the Dawson Creek Salvation Army temple, a rabbi wearing a fine robe approached me and said, "You are welcome to visit Israel." I was honored. That was a great moment.



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Saturday, April 21, 2018

Queen Elizabeth standing in a Church, says, "Because I see people all the time." That means, don't worry, there are people a lot worse off than you. Her mouth didn't move when she said that. Peter Matthiesen once wrote that people who return from the other dimension get an initial shock when they see people talking with their mouth moving.




Friday, April 20, 2018

"The Queen isn't coming. She hasn't sent her invitations." hypnagogic voice.




Wednesday, April 27,2018

"The Monarch. Don't ever lose him."



Saturday, May 5, 2018


King George 6th, voice only: "The problem has 161 solutions, but this is the way out."

Me: "Queen Victoria." Queen Victoria "Call me Vicky." Quick front view of Queen Victoria's face, a white lace shawl all over her head. She had curly brown hair. Anyways, today I got a bag of Miss Vickie's chips. This will let the spirit world know that I know that they know that I know about this.



Thursday, May 10, 2018

Queen Elizabeth standing next to a painting of two people on a hill.


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Saturday, May 12, 2018


Watching a video about the Sphinx on YouTube. The Sphinx has a cat's head. "The Sphinx was the Pharoah's cat."


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Sunday, May 13, 2018


"Chateau Louis." That could also be Chateau Lui. His house. The word castle came from Chateau. Le Chateau. If it was Chateau Le, that's the same as castle.


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Tuesday, May 15, 2018


"Prince William and Prince Harry are a dynamic duo like Batman and Robin."





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Saturday, June 2, 2018


About Queen Victoria. "The Sovereign is the jewel..." The jewel in the Crown, is the saying.

A blurry fleeting hypnagogic vision of Queen Elizabeth's male secretary what she wants for the day.


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Tuesday, June 5, 2018


Hypnagogic vision. A crowd compliments Queen Elizabeth, wearing a light blue suit. She holds her hands up at her neck and her face, she is smiling and making a distinct pendulum motion, shaking her head in that motion about 3, 4, times, feeling very complimented and showing the crowd, letting them know she felt their compliments.


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Tuesday, July 5, 2018

Queen Elizabeth giving a speech near a tower. Dressed in sapphire blue, She was wearing a 'Tower Hat'.

Friday, April 13, 2018

Friday, April 13, 2018

In a car driving down the highway. I decide to turn around, back along another road.

I see a white RCMP Police car. As I pass it, I look in the window and two photogenic Police Officers, a middle aged man silver grey hair, and a middle aged woman, long blonde hair, maybe I recognize them from television, look right at me and smile a quirky authoritative Police smile.

I turn left and walk down a small tiny trail. I see some flattened corpses of dead dogs.

Just then I turn around and see a man in a sleigh but with two huge golden chow dogs. I reach out to pet one and the one one my left and the sleigh driver's right bites my hand. It doesn't hurt too much though.





Sigh, I was thinking of suicide again recently.
If women don't like me, that's because life doesn't like me, well then I don't like life either, so why not end it, or modify it?
Ending one's life is a misnomer. One never dies. It's more like modifying one's life from living in this dimension part time and the afterlife dimension part time to a life where I'm living in the afterlife dimension full time.
Drop out of life, like dropping out of school. Quit life, like quitting a job. That's the ideal but not the reality.



Anyways, the Police car was to tell me not to do it. The two dogs, like Cerberus, the guardian dogs at the gates of hell was to tell me not to do it. That one of them bit my hand. Animals will sometimes bite my hand in dreams, again to tell me nonverbally not to use my hand to commit suicide.
Looking back, I have to realize that the cops in the dream knew about the golden chows that were then coming up.

The dreams I had over the last few days, weeks were really good. All kinds of celebrities, politicians, even Royalty and golden chow dogs visited me. That means I am loved. I should know this. I won't do myself in, although I wonder if I'm living in the right town.
Today, I saw the Mayor of the town as the Mayor rode past me. At first at a distance, I didn't know it was the Mayor.




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Friday, April 20, 2018

I was with a lady who really liked me. Then at one point, I was walking her to the airport. We sat in a room with benches in the airport lounge for a minute then putting my left arm around her I told her I loved her. Then she was with her female coach. She seemed to turn on me and walked away with the coach.

This upset me. I walked away and then through an area that was under construction. A large room with scaffolding. I said, "Cracker, you tell them something good and in return, they offer you something bad and turn on you." A guy was walking with me to my right, briefly, as I was saying this. Maybe the spiritual guide or the spiritual equivalent of an agent.

I then walked towards the scaffolding.

I was being naive again. In the movie Notting Hill when Hugh Grant visits Julia Roberts at the film set where she is an actress, she acts dismissively towards Hugh Grant despite their friendship. When Hugh Grant asks her about it, she said it was an act that she had to put on because her director was there. And it was to protect Hugh Grant from the paparazzi. She was thinking two steps ahead.
Because of the celebrity scandal driven industry. In the dream, that girl didn't want to show the coach how much she liked me, for some reason. Maybe for protective reasons, because maybe she's a ghost of the dead. As a protective measure they often prevent you from getting too close if they know that you don't know that they're dead.


Ghosts don't always send messages that the conscious mind can receive. They often send messages that the subconscious mind can perceive even if the conscious mind doesn't.

Victoria and Albert, Royal dream - classified

"They'll think I'm crazy or making it up. Sometimes I think I'm crazy or making it up." Marissa Ryan, psychic


This will be classified soon. One can have dreams of any other people and not be thought of as crazy. Telling people you had dreams of Royalty can get you branded as 'crazy'. I don't want that. My aim is to be normal. Normality. Normal. Sanity and normality.

Sunday, April 8, 2018

In a room with a lady who I sensed was Royalty. At first I thought she might be Queen Elizabeth, but she had curly brown hair and a somewhat different vibe. It was Queen Victoria! She was seated at a table. Standing behind me at the table, when I turned around to look, it was a man dressed in a 19th Century red military uniform. He looked plastic and shiny, I thought he was fake, but ghosts sometimes do have a new plastic shiny look to them. His head looked bald but not bald at the same time. It was Prince Albert. He was standing behind me the way Prince Philip stood behind me in the other dream. And like King George and King Edward stood behind me. What's this with Kings standing behind me in dreams?
Leonardo di Caprio. The Titanic. "I'm the King of the World!" Like a King, he was standing behind somebody when he said that.

Then I went into a hall and saw Queen Victoria again! I told her I saw some Royal people, me not knowing at the time it was her I was referring to.

Then I went into a room and saw something strange. A ghost changing clothes fast, one after another. I missed a couple but the ones I got were the British Union standard t shirt and then the red military uniform again.

Later, I was riding a bus. The bus stopped. There was snow all around. Then Debby, my old friend whom I haven't seen for years steps out in a yellow dress.

She walks up the street and turns right.I chase her but she doesn't seem to want to talk to me.

At one point, she stopped, so I stood where I was and yelled at her. I yell at her, "I've improved and changed over the years. I traveled a lot and know a lot about the 5th Dimension. Why would you avoid me? I've done a lot in my life. You're still just a square!"

Then I am at a place. A playground. I am told there is a card game there at a building further on. The code word to get in the door is "Straight up." I go across a park and mimic an East Indian accent, maybe even Maharishi Mahesh Yogi's, "Transcendental meditation is good. Transcendental meditation is good. Sick boy is very very sick."
A reference to Sick Boy's unifying theory of life, perhaps.

I arrive at the building. Shimmy up a ramp with railings, and then get to the door.

When I am there, a party is going on. I see Debby. She walks past me and we hug. We kiss each other a little bit, pause and then we really kiss. I am thinking, "This my first kiss with Debby. Me, at this age." This age referring to being nearly 50.




When I woke up, I looked out of the hotel front window to look for a sign. Last time I saw a sign, the Police van 1147. Anyways, the sign was a lady with long hair, same color as Queen Victoria, with a jacket with white and then blue and some dark blue. The white was on the shoulders, and some on the sleeve or elsewhere. Same colors as the dress.

Spring, 2018 - The Others - Agreeing yet also disagreeing - Things that are important

Monday, March 26, 2018

In a room with a few people. I see images of the city of Birmingham in England as in a slideshow. Me and those people are in a room, looking at the windows of an apartment building across the street. I say to the person to my left, dressed in chef clothes says, "That city looks really modern."
"I'm from there." he says.
I say, "Do you miss the place?"
"No." he says.
Then I say, "I wake up every morning crying wishing I was in Bangkok again."



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Friday, March 30, 2018

Winter day, lots of snow on the ground. Two white Police vans to my right pull in front of me and parks. One parks 50 metres ahead, a metre being 3 feet, I'm keeping score. And the other parks 10 metres ahead front of the van facing to the left. Dreams reveal things as this is probably a good technical move. I walk ahead to the Police van that was parked 50 metres ahead, facing front. There are two tactical SWAT team officers there, slim dressed all in black. I tell them that I'm an expert in martial arts. Weird dream. I know. All dreams are weird.


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Monday, April 2, 2018

Last night I was with my spiritual guide trying to catch a small baby alligator. It was jumping all over the place. I had in my hand a white thin plastic bag with some water in it. I do manage to catch the alligator in the bag at one point, but it jumps up and bites me under neath the middle segment of my right index finger. It pinches for a second. I telepath to my spirit guide to my left, "It bit me!"

Unbelievable but I'll write about it anyways. Samuel L Jackson sitting in a chair, dressed all in purple. A purple suit, white shirt, purple tie. Wearing sunglasses. He said, "On a firm finding mission." Rather than fact finding mission. I reflected that Firm is a reference to something British, something Royal...




Alligator, crocodile, in ancient Egypt, these were seen as Royal animals. It bit me on the hand. I have very skilled hands. Add baby alligator to the list of animals that bit me on the hand in the afterlife including yellow snake with orange spots; Burmese python, dogs, a few of them, and a cat.



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Agreeing Yet Disagreeing

And it's kind of like the Nicole Kidman movie, 'The Others', except that it's in seconds and minutes. Every once in awhile in all dreams, for a few seconds or a few minutes, I forget that I'm sleeping and dreaming and think I'm awake somewhere else.
This happens all the time. Like when I was at McDonald's and I said, "I'm here now again, actually working at McDonald's!", and the ghostly employees in that dream looked at me, neither agreeing nor disagreeing with me.
When I was at the airport thinking I was at the airport again, about to go to Bangkok again, ticket in hand, "I will go to Thailand again, oh yes, I will." Thinking of Wayne's World's guitar. The person who was there smiled benignly at me, again, neither agreeing nor disagreeing with me.
One time, I dreamed I was in Vancouver, near the White Spot on Georgia near Stanley Park. I saw my friend Terry. He was wearing a blue t shirt. I said to him. "I thought you were dead." "I'm right here!" he said. "I'm in Vancouver now!" I said. "So you're in Vancouver." he said, again, neither agreeing nor disagreeing with me.
The old woman, Mrs Bertha Mills, seemed to be simultaneously agreeing with and disagreeing with Nicole Kidman whenever she said something and looking at her funny the whole time, as if saying, pity, you haven't clued in on the one essential clue.


In the movie The Polar Express, there was a moment like this when the boy said, "Is this a dream?" and the tramp said, "You said it, kid, not me!" Agreeing yet disagreeing. What the tramp also meant was it was the boy who was dreaming, not the tramp. The boy is a temporary and part time visitor, the tramp was there full time, a permanent resident.
Also when the tramp asked, "Do you believe in ghosts?" The boy said, "No." The tramp said, "Interesting." Again in that sentence he neither agreed nor disagreed, he neither said or didn't say that they were in fact, at that moment, ghosts right then and there.


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TWilight Zone Reality


I wonder if at the end of my life, there will be some detail revealed to me that will make my whole life a twilight zone movie. Knowing me, there probably will be. Like basic essential things I thought all along were actually wrong, or else in reverse. Either on a personal level or on a general scientific level. Maybe science will reveal some clue that will let us know that some basic thing we though of as reality all along was an illusion, a classic Twilight Zone twist.
Or maybe I'm royalty. Albeit extremely minor royalty, I would think. That explains why I was able to live on a lifelong premium pension from the government. That's no accident. Set for life.



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The Others


I want to talk about the Alejandro Amenabar film The Others. Most of the time, I give a movie I like 15 stars out of 10. I give this one 100 stars out of 10 although there are some macabre scenes which may or may not be fake; a type of moulage. I look away from the screen for a couple of minutes whenever this scene comes up. The Others got so many details right. The individual strands of hair you see off a top corner of their head when the lighting is right. The stubble on the soldier, so many male ghosts have stubble, like a Hollywood movie star. The women, the curls of their hair look modern and relevant like a lady you'd see everyday at a nightclub. They got that right. Also Grace Stewart, the Nicole Kidman character lived in a house behind black gates. That would be the black gates of hell. She is there because of what she did. The children are there because they are tied to that event and that they don't know that they're dead. The soldier arrives from a far off more heavenly realm to visit his ex-wife behind one of the gates of hell. When the movie starts, Nicole Kidman screams. She is an earthbound ghost sensing her own ghostly vibes. She is, smelling herself. "You came back to get the old scent. Why don't you smell yourself?" Hannibal Lecter, Red Dragon. A ghost gives off a cold deathly chill vibe, like going to a hundred funerals, simultaneously or the ice bucket challenge. Not good.
And locking the door doesn't help because ghosts can teleport through doors. The movie covers this as well.



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Things That Are Important


Things that are important in one stage are not important in another. During grade school, having the best building blocks and having the best crayons were important. In high school, that's no longer an issue. However in high school, having the best notebook with a picture of Guardians of the Galaxy is important. In adulthood, that's not important. During adulthood, having money is important. But money makes you a target of possible scammers. One might even become a target of themselves. Impulse buying. "I can afford that." Before you know it, you have a roomful of weird knickknacks. I tell myself to never have so much money that one becomes a target.
Things that you think are important, the spirits don't think are important. Things that you don't think are important, the spirits think are important. That means developing your personality, being a good person, not ripping people off is important. Money, getting laid, notoriety, that's not important. In the afterlife, what survives is one's personality. Money is not important in the afterlife. Money is tied to the physics of this dimension. We need money to eat, to deflect from extremes of hot or cold with an air conditioner or a heater, we need to sleep and that means a room with a bed. All that requires money. In the afterlife, spirits don't need to eat, are impervious to hot or cold and they don't need to sleep.
In the afterlife, we don't need to 'get it on' in the same way as we do in this dimension. There getting it on is symbolic and an expression of intimacy rather than being tied to physiological needs and reproduction.
I often worry that I won't get the right notoriety for my work. But that would be the notoriety of a species of entities who are tied to the physics of this dimension and the resultant cultures that derive from such physics. Would the notoriety of entities like that be that important once you're in the spirit world? Once you're in the catbird's seat so to speak?