Thursday, December 1, 2022
I was talking to a lady sitting at a desk in an office. I had to answer a question on a form that had to do with Trudeau's euthanization program. I had to answer the question correctly in a specific way with specific wording otherwise I would be euthanized.
The lady was named Ari and she was apparently someone I went to high school with.
I then went to my old high school. Instead of just walking the halls and trying to pass as a student, I had to go into classrooms and pretend that I was a student again.
I never knew anyone in high school named Ari.
I worry that Trudeau's program might euthanize me.
Friday, December 2, 2022
5 pm to 7 pm afternoon nap.
I was in Las Vegas in the 50s. I was in a small dining room. There was a bar, then to my left was a long table of people eating, then a large wooden television with a black and white display. This television was a 28" television and it was as large as the televisions of the 70s. However, being the 50s, such large televisions were rare and expensive which was why it was in Las Vegas. I walked from the bar to the television. It was turned off. There was a bar at where the television was too. The bartender said the television had to be turned off every once in awhile or the tint would be off. I wanted the television to be turned on again.The television was turned on again. Elvis was on. I was dancing trying to imitate Elvis in Vegas.
Then I left and went on the street. It was night time. I saw Suzie's car. I wanted to go there. I had to go past two trucks parked next to and into one another, then there was a large gate. When I got to the street to where her car was, it was gone. There was a bunch of 80s stars dancing in a line side by side. Michael Jackson was one of them. I heard the words to the song, "I'm forever your girl." Suzie finally showed up.
I went into a large garage. There were two nice ladies, models, dancers, outer space alien ladies with blue skin. I painted parts of them yellow, strategically to look nice. Then I got the sentiment that Suzie would always be there for me. It was a loving and peaceful feeling. End of dream.
In real life, I am trying to avoid Suzie. I don't like the terms of the friendship. I don't like the set up. It was strange that I had a dream about her. Today, I walked on the block where she works on Friday. I avoided her today. I'm not sure that I'd want to see her ever again. I really don't care if I don't see her ever again. I wish her the best but just the same, I don't want to see her ever again. Nobody owes anyone a lifelong friendship.
Saturday, December 3, 2022
I was in a school hallway. I had an old fashioned cassette walkman with headphones and a cassette tape on top of the walkman. I left it in the hall. When I walked back, it was gone. Then it was found again in a school locker.
I thought of something I seen on the internet: 'Today is the future you were worried about yesterday. Are things as bad as you thought they'd be?' I thought it is worse. I never got married and wound up stuck in a rooming house possibly for life.
Upon waking, I thought maybe not getting married isn't a bad thing. What if the marriage turned out horribly? Some marriages are just awful etc.
Sunday, December 4, 2022
First dream. I saw my old friend Harold the junkie. He is about 20 years older than me so I wonder if he's still alive. The last time I'd seen him was in March 2011. Harold was playing hockey with someone and that someone punched him twice in the face. Harold fell over.
Second dream. Weird and very surreal. I met a fat lady wearing a blue nightgown. She revealed her vagina and within her vagina was a large blue plastic bed pan with a brown cucumber shaped turd on it. She invited me to enter. I did. As I did this a couple of men seated at the side were watching me and giggling and commenting.
I went to Chinatown. I wanted some crispy pork but the only thing they had was crispy dried bok choy in a clear plastic wrap package.
The Chinese lady who sold me the bok choy told me that she was lonely. I said to her, "Perhaps your husband could help you." She seemed slightly disappointed with this answer.
Monday, December 5, 2022
Instensely weird geometric dream. God and Jesus showed me how they are guiding my life. I was shown a video game very much like match 3. Instead of jewels or candy, each individual icon was a pair of the tops of two telephone poles. There were two icons at a time, of course made up of 4 tops of telephone poles all together. I saw the word REVE is all capital letters. Reve, reveille. Reve is the word in French for dreams. The two icons paired together would contact an area with other tops of telephone poles, a lot of them. Sometimes these telephone poles disappeared on contact. Sometimes they didn't. Sometimes these pairs of two telephone poles had two white ribbons tied to them. If I moved or rearranged some of the telephone poles, God would do likewise either adding telephone poles or making some telephone poles disappear. This was a constant ongoing process. For example if I make an unexpected choice to smoke pot thus adding some new pairs of tops of two telephone poles, God compensates for that through rearranging some other telephone poles.
I didn't see God and Jesus in the dream. Their presence was sensed and inferred.
I had this dream just after I smoked pot 3 times in a row last night. 1 toke, then 4 hours later, another toke, then 2 hours later, another toke. I was in pain because of the cold and fever that I had. In the old days, cannabis was prescribed as medication for mild colds and headaches. That is until the pernicious delinquency of the government decided to regulate all that.
Drugs that work well 100% of the time are demonized and made illegal to get people to use drugs that either don't work so well so they got to continue taking more of it, medical profiteering or else research and development is always developing new drugs but if people refused these new drugs then research and development would be out of a job.
Morphine and cocaine and cannabis used to be over the counter medicines at drug stores. This was in the 1800s. Long ago with the Harrison Act of 1905, these drugs were made illegal followed with the Marijuana Act of 1937.
Things have come full circle. A lot of countries legalized marijuana. And in a lot of regions, limited possession of up to 2.5 grams of hard drugs, cocaine, heroin, meth, etc is decriminalized.
Sure cocaine and heroin worked as very efficient medicines for certain ailments but one has to be informed in using these drugs. They have a high potential for addiction and the lethal dosage of heroin is 1 gram and the lethal dose of cocaine is 2 grams.
Thursday, December 8, 2022
I was staying with a family of people. There was a knock on the kitchen door. Outside was a Chinese family and Eric was there too.
Then Prince Philip appeared. He appeared to be about 80. He walked in and sat down with his left side towards me. He was wearing a black silk tuxedo suit with black shirt and black tie. He suggested putting on a Beatles record. As I played the record it skipped. I took the record off the spin table and shook the dust and dirt off of it. Prince Philip said that during the Beatles Era, there was a lot of poor people protesting in the streets. Queen Elizabeth appeared. She was wearing all yellow. Yellow hat and yellow royal business blazer and skirt. She appeared to be about 80. She said that Prince Philip said that Albert Einstein rode in a long car made of diamonds. Then I sat at a table next to Queen Elizabeth. She sat to the right of me. I told her that I remember her telling me that if I want something I had to get it right away. Just then I dropped what I was eating to the floor. I quickly retrieved it.
Then after that I saw my stepmother. She told me about silk weaving butterflies. I told her that I thought she is smart and an expert. Dream over. There was more to the dream and it was longer but I forgot now.
Morning nap. I visit Debbie from the downtown Eastside of Vancouver. We were hanging around for awhile. I hugged her often as I thought she is cute. A couple of times she was yelling and argumentative but that's classic Debbie. I asked if I could stay overnight at her place so I could visit Vancouver awhile longer.
Disturbing detail: At one point just as the dream was about to end, Debbie was lying on her bed and took down her pants and I saw a big old erect penis! Highly disturbing dream. On a scale of 1 to 10, the disturbance is at a 15.
Debbie is all woman. Why would I have a dream like that? Freud talks abut dreams as wish fulfillment. Why would I wish that about Debbie?!
I think the World of Debbie and wish her all the success in the World. I regret that I had such a dream but part of talking about dreams is to have the courage to talk about even the most weird parts of a dream.
Friday, December 9, 2022
I was going to North Vancouver at night, going to Capilano Mall.
Then I was visiting one lady and then visiting another. At one point when I visited one lady I hugged her. This lady had two sisters and one of them was Princess Diana. I saw Princess Di walking from left to right her right side towards me. She was wearing a long white sequined dress and a tiara. I was told that even though I was friendly and intimate with one of the two ladies, I really didn't love her that much. I was slightly interested in two of the three sisters, but the Princess I wouldn't dare approach on an intimate level. A Princess is too high, too out of my league. There would be trouble if an ordinary person approached a Princess on an intimate level.
More to the dream but forgotten.
A Buddhist Priest wrote me a letter, returning a letter I sent him. He said that dreams of Royalty means that something is looking out for and protecting me.
I still wake up with fear but it's not nearly as bad as it once was. Its more like microfear now. When I wake up on any given day and think of last nights dream, that's when I get the fear, thinking, "Another crazy dream again. And I can't help writing about my dreams. Me having a crazy dream means I'm crazy and if people find out about my dreams, the Police might send me to the mental hospital."
A book about dreams did say that many people wake up from a dream feeling as if they committed a crime.
The fear and anxiety has levels. At first it was profoundly extreme. Then every two or three months, it drops off a level, still there, but noticeably down a level. It hasn't completely gone away yet but one day, there will be that last drop and the fear will be completely gone and I will be fearless like a lot of my favorite YouTubers. These YouTubers make the most incredible videos travelling overseas all the time, talking to strangers saying a lot of things that are crazy, but a good crazy, crazy like a fox. And they are fearless. Although I don't watch iJustine videos on YouTube anymore because she is always talking about products that I can't afford and have no intention of ever getting, I have for years and will always admire her for her fearlessness. She travels to so many places like Spain, England, Hawaii etc and that takes courage. It takes courage to travel to a faraway place whether you've been there before or not. iJustine is fearless!
Monday, December 12, 2022
I saw my friend Charles. I was told that if I were to move to Vancouver, the best thing to bring is a few clothes, forget bringing any books etc because that can all be replaced.
Tuesday, December 13, 2022
I was temporarily taking care of a golden pug dog that I found on the beach. The dog belonged to Nicholas Cage. The dog's name is Aqqua Soll.
I was able to visit the beach house of Nicholas Cage with a few friends. The dog had been returned and wasn't there at the beach house. Nicholas Cage lived in a really luxurious beach house, golden interior, golden carved pillars and a large window that opened on to a swimming pool. Nicholas Cage showed up. I told him about my website, Noble Films and that I am an artist. I also mentioned the movies that I like of his.
Then I went to a cabin near the beach. There were sports events including throwing things in hoops. I threw in 2 things out of 5 in hoops.
Thursday, December 15, 2022
I was at a Library in an open corner where there were books lined on waist high shelves on two walls of the corner. There were windows above one wall of the shelves, the left hand side wall. There was a group of people there. One was an old lady with a nice body. She flashed her breasts then again this time her sweater covering the top part of the breasts. She had funny looking plastic pink translucent nipples. I walked to move closer to her. She got mad at me. She said I shouldn't be there and that I was banned from the library.
I went to another Library that had a similar corner. There was a young Native lady who said she was celebrating her first decade and that her organization was 100 years old. I said, "You're celebrating your first century, not first decade."
I saw a Native man. He told me to move. I got mad at him. I said, "If I was a 6 foot tall muscular White guy who was dressed properly, you wouldn't have said that to me."
End of dream.
This applies to all dreams. Whatever.
Saturday, December 17, 2022
I was in Thailand. I was at the airport. I saw a sign about the Police watching all people. Then I was on a boat. They sold branches of purple flowers for $1 each. I reflected that when I am in Canada, I want to go to Thailand but when I am in Thailand, I want to go back to Canada.
Then I was in Vancouver. I took a bus going South on the Granville Street Bridge. When I got to the bus loop at the South end of the Granville Street Bridge, I got off the bus and I walked in front of the bus. Another bus was in front of it. The bus I was on moved forward. I was almost pinned between the two busses. Then I went to a movie theater. There was a free show for firefighting volunteers. I saw a bunch of teenagers, 1 girl and a few guys. I play fighted with a couple of the guys. One of the guys I tripped during the play fight.
I got off the bus but the King Edward bus I wanted to get to the North of Granville Street Bridge didn't stop where I was because I walked a block past the Bridge. I walked back onto the Granville Street Bridge and I was walking North. I reflected that I love Vancouver and I wish I had visited Vancouver during my 40s. Now I am visiting during my 50s.
Dream over.
Sunday, December 18, 2022
I was at UBC. I found a small light blue skateboard. I skated around. There were nills and bowls carved in the concrete. A security guard said I couldn't skate there. He lightly scratched my left shoulder.
One of the tracks holding the wheels on my skateboard was loose. It had only one screw out of two.
I met a couple of teenage boys. One of them was the talkative one. He asked if I knew where to get weed. I said there is a store on 4th Avenue. He asked me for ten dollars and he would repair the track on my skateboard.
He then said he needed cocaine because there was a problem. His father uses it.
Then as we kept on walking, I asked them if they heard of DMT. I said that DMT makes you see things. Even the spirit of your desd grandfather or dead grandfather and dead grandmother appears before you vividly. As I said this I saw a bunch of tiny little insects. I walked further down the street and found two twenties and two ten dollar bills but the ten dollar bills were red.
We all went to a small store or laundromat. I gave the guy ten dollars. He gave me some stickers for the skateboard. I said to him, I thought you were going to fix my skateboard. He said something about being careful in life and how life had its compromises. I said to him, You're a smooth talker, you'd do well in California.
He then disappeared into a small knapsack and when he reappeared he looked older, about 35.
Strange dream. Of course.
Monday, December 19, 2022
I was at Expo 86 in Vancouver. No rides or attractions were there. I was just on the Expo grounds. Saw a few people and found some money. I first found a bunch of coins including quarters and toonies in AA transparent Ziploc bag and I picked that up. I found some other bag of coins of a bench, a small bag of coins. It looked like it belonged to someone so I didn't pick it up. I walked outside the gates of Expo 86 and found a large stack of bills. I picked that up. Then I walked around then flew around. I went to a fast food diner greasy spoon near the gates of Expo. I wanted to go back to Expo to see if I could find more money. When I got back to the gates of Expo, Expo was closed. End of dream.
This is the second time in two days that I had a dream of finding money on the ground.
Afternnon nap:
I was in a large department store in a mall. A large flatscrren TV was showing a Granny porn video with 5 porn grannies in the video.
I was then on the highway. I thought of whether or not to see Suzie. A voice said not to see her again because she wasted a lot of my time.
I was in Vancouver and wanted to go to Victoria. There was one route leading to one boat which seemed to be faster. I was on a bus. It was crowded. At one point I crouched down and did a horse stance on the bus.
I got off the bus and tried to walk to where I was supposed to go but I was lost. The streets were dark because it was night time. End of dream.
There are two ways with boats to Victoria. There is going to North Vancouver to Horshoe Bay then ride the ferry to Nanaimo and then drive down the island to Victoria. Or there is go to Tsawwassen, take the ferry to Schwartz Bay then drive to Victoria along the Patricia Bay Highway.
Tuesday, December 20, 2022
Evening nap: 7:45 pm to 9:30 pm.
I was at UBC. Details unclear. I was walking down a large hallway which I recognize now as the AMS Nest.
Then I was at my aunt's house. My cousin Gordon was sitting on the couch. I went to the stove to the right of the couch and got some sweet stewed vegetables, soybeans and sliced bbq pork and made a sandwich out of it. Joel Osteen was on television. The thing is, in the real waking world, I did have a Joel Osteen video on YouTube at the time. It is called Settled Accounts. Joel Osteen said, "It's payback time!"
I sat on the floor in front of Gordon. He appeared as a 12 year old child. In real life, he would be about 49 now. I said to him, "Payback time is speaking in code. Do you know what it means? It means my cock in your mother's vagina."
Just then I turned around and my Aunt Lila who is Gordon's mother was standing over me! She stood over me just like my mother did in a dream in 2003. Aunt Lila was wearing a dark blue bathrobe. I also have a dark blue bathrobe. Aunt Lila stood over me and smiled and although she most likely heard what I said, she did not seem to mind.
She walked over to a table behind the stove. I looked at her but didn't want to stare because of what I said because the stare might be misinterpreted. She was facing me but she was leaning forward. End of dream. It was a very sweet feeling to see my Aunt Lila. During the dream, I had forgotten that she had died. She seemed so alive in the dream.
Wednesday, December 21, 2022
I was at a library. Someone had a two lamps, one a large one and another a smaller copy of two horse hoof shaped forms of glass a smaller one on top of and to the back and center of a smaller piece of the exact same shape below it. The two floor of this lamp are opaque rather than transparent.
I discerned the year was 1920. I even saw the number 1920 in white times Roman font lettering. I thought, "If it is 1920, they won't like what's coming in 19 years." 19 years later would've been 1939. World War 2.
End of what I remember of the dream.
Thursday, December 22, 2022
I was in Dawson Creek. I was cooking at Charles restaurant. I got a few orders wrong.
I was sleeping at nights on a large bed with Trina. Trina then said to me, "My boy friend is gone. A few thousand dollars is gone from my bank account. I think you did it. You're not the sweet person you seem to be."
Then the Police talked to me about the orders I cooked wrong and also about Trina's missing money. I said to them, "If I took the money, why would I still be here with her? I sleep on a bed with her. There would be evidence if I took her money. Doesn't Trina bank at TD bank or BB BANK? There would be no video evidence of me ever having gone in that bank. I use a different bank."
Charles talked to me about the cooked orders. I finally learned to cook it right. He was bringing a tray including a full size cooked lobster to the next town. I followed along. As he was running down the stairs, the stairs collapsed but he never lost his footing.
I went to a bar that was close. A fat middle aged lady with blonde hair was the manager. She reluctantly agreed that I wasn't the reason why Trina's money was gone. I told her that Charles went to the next town. She said, "He went to see the squaw." implying that Charles had a Native female lover who has a nice body.
I was sitting in a car and thought, if Dawson Creek was a Province, Charles would be the Premier.
Saturday, December 24, 2022
I was at a supermarket. It was cloudy outside and the supermarket was dimly lit. I said that the pituitary gland was responsible for adrenocorticophin reactive hormone but is also responsible for oxytocin.
I was told that going to Vancouver for a week in March is a good idea.
Sunday, December 25, 2022
I was in Cambodia. I was staying at a Cambodian hotel. The walls of the hotel were green. It was an old hotel. There was an upper level landing with white railings. I got into an elevator and saw some very Oriental faces. One guy looked Oriental and handsome.
I was trying to speak Cambodian at one point making jokes in Cambodian.
There was a fat middle aged Oriental lady who said she flew from Thailand to Laos then Cambodia.
I was then told that they could set up a Cambodian theme park in the North of Canada and no one would know that it was a theme park.
Cambodia is a death omen. I often thought it was but if it was such a death omen, why are there so many people living there?
Afternoon nap: Someone was downloading some Boy George songs off of a computer. The songs were 'Church of the Poisoned Mind' and 'It's a Miracle'. I thought that I should download those songs too.
Boy George is a good singer and good musician even though he has an alternate and extreme lifestyle. And I thought I had issues! I admire him for being able to keep it all together. He never says that he feels fear and anxiety all the time like I do. Boy George doesn't care about wanting to be normal or else like most people.
Monday, December 26, 2022
I saw a lady I once knew named Lora Gravel. I regretted not talking to her one time. In the dream, I saw her at a cafe restaurant located at Oppenheimer Park. In real life, such a cafe doesn't exist at that location. I was going to ay to her that I am sorry for not wanting to talk to her one time and this was about 20 years ago. She said that she wanted a coffee, some condensed milk and a government slice from the cashier at the food counter. I said that I wanted a government slice and a pack of seafood flavored chips. I saw a pack of Cheezies on the chip rack. End of dream.
I quit coffee. Coffee gives me anxiety. I want to quit tobacco and pot as well.
"Don't smoke, don't chew, There's not much that we can do."
One day, I'll be like Adam Ant, Goody Two Shoes,
"Goody good, Goody good, Goody goody two shoes, don't drink don't smoke, what do you do?"
Would Jesus think less of me if I smoke pot occasionally? One day, I will find the answer to that.
Tuesday, December 27, 2022
I was with a coupe of my cousins. It was as if wwe were children again and at the house where they used to live on Odlum Street in Vancouver.
Incidentally, a couple of days ago, I looked for that house on Google Maps Street View. I saw the back wall of the house above the back porch. I remember sitting there when I was 7 years old on a bench against the wall with my grandfather. He was drinking coffee. I asked if I could have a sip. I had a sip and the coffee was bitter! That wall is still there.
Then I was going to Thailand. At one time, and this was at night, I saw the present King of Thailand. He was wearing a white military uniform. He had a sword which he raised and struck down at me but I blocked it. Strange.
Then as I was in the back seat of a car, two middle aged Thai ladies got into the car with me to my right. I recognized one of them, her face looked familiar.
Wednesday, December 28, 2022
I was in Dawson Creek. I was at a pawn store looking for a book. The pawn store was cluttered with all kinds of things about. Then I went to somewhere and I left my shoes behind.
Then I was getting ready to travel to Prince Rupert but I couldn't do it because I was walking barefoot and and couldn't find my shoes.
I went back to the pawn store. The lady who ran the pawn store was there and so was her husband. They gave me a curious look.
Afterwards I found out that although I did leave a pair of shoes behind, I had another pair of shoes and I was wearing them. It was late in the day and I wondered if I should go to Prince Rupert because I had only been in Dawson Creek for a day.
Then I was in a modern greyish white BMW. I was sitting in the back seat in the center. The BMW drove itself, it spun around a couple of times and then went down a cliff along with the passengers who were with me. We all survived. At the bottom of the cliff, we saw a beach and a shore.
Then I was in a room at a University. I looked down on a piece of yellow lined paper which read, "Seda Sechelle invented the quantum computer. She used cocaine and she made the students who studied under her eat squash salad every day for 16 days."
End of another dream. I wake up afraid every day after having yet another crazy dream as if I committed a crime. Or else I think that I am losing my mind, am insane or crazy. If the Police knew that my dreams are that crazy meaning that my mind is that crazy, surely they will send me to the mental hospital. Hence my fears every morning.
Friday, December 30, 2022
Very quick fleeting vision of President Bill Clinton. He was wearing a light grey suit. You probably don't believe me. I don't know if I believe it.
Saturday, December 31, 2023
I saw Joe Flaherty. It was nighttime. Joe Flaherty was wearing a black leather jacket. He was portraying an Eastern European agent.
John Belushi was also there and also portraying an Eastern European agent too.
Just writing this for the hell of it. I don't know if I believe it anymore. It sounds too crazy. I don't care if you believe me or not. Maybe I don't even believe myself yet something makes me write this.
