April 1, 2022
Last night as I was sleeping on my right side, I felt two taps of a hand in my left shoulder. I had the impression that the hand was all black. But it was soft gentle taps, one tap and a lighter tap after that. I wonder who it was. I don't think it was from someone bad because it didn't hurt. This never happened to me before. I need to find an answer as to what that was. Maybe it was my vivid imagination.
Weird dream. I saw The Godfather's house. It was a large wooden mansion. Looking from the front, two houses to the left of that was a larger multistory dull light blue house. When I looked in the windows of it from a distance, I saw large silver chess pieces on tables and large supercomputer mainframes behind that. There was one person, a man sitting on a table and working there.
I think the large light blue house represents the government. The Godfather house represents the Catholic Church or else a protective entity that understands the duality of good and evil.
Then I go to a place. An orange sky dusk. It was some brick houses on a street that reminds me of West Side Story or else houses on a street like in old time Europe. From a black railing second floor landing which some steps led up to, someone had a bunch of pink roses and said something in Latin that I understood. "The roses have what you're looking for." or words to that effect. I don't remember exactly.
Then two people were shot dead lying on a pile on top of one another on the floor. Weird or what?
Saturday, April 2, 2022
I was with a couple, a man and his wife who were country singers wearing jean jackets. Josh Whedon was the name I got. Then the man of the couple who were country singers told me he got into a sudden accident with a large rotating circular saw. His fingers were cut off. He even showed me the strangely unbleeding and fully healed stump of his left hand and his right hand with the fingers half cut off. I wondered if I had done something different then that would have altered the chain of events so that his fingers would not have been cut from the circular saw.
I was at a line up at Shoppers Drug Mart except the cashier was in a lone island kiosk in the middle of the floor of a large very dim almost dark shopping mall.
Then I went outside and was lying down on my left side on the pavement. Cloudy day. In front of me were was people sitting along a wall of a building. The two people who were closest to me were two young girls about 17 years old. The one in front of me had shoulder length dark hair, to her right sitting about two feet away from her was a girl with long sandy blonde hair. The dark haired girl was quite pretty, I thought.
Then a boy about seven years old with blonde hair wearing a white tank top and powder blue shorts sat behind me. The boy had a comforting presence. I wondered if the boy was young Royalty. Royalty figures have often appeared to be suddenly standing behind me in dreams.
End of dream.
Sunday, April 3
I was at Brookmere elementary school. I did two backwards somersaults. In the last somersault, I landed bent over. There were lots of children. My little sister as a child was there too.
There were pizza pops. Hot Hot Hot!
I was in a roller coaster near Brookmere school. I was at a restaurant which I discovered was on the same block as the school.
When I left the school I was arrested. I saw a photograph of my arrest. I was led out, my hands handcuffed behind me. I had a strange haircut and I wss young. The hair was very short on the sides and back. My hair was combed over and I had long straight extending bangs.
I was freed and ran back to the school. There were children everywhere. I tried to run to avoid the children but they were everywhere on all sides. End of dream. Vivid and a bit freaky but what dreams aren't?
Monday, April 4
Major dream about PM Justin Trudeau. I'll try to remember what I can.
In a large wide hallway with windows on either side, beige polished marble floor. PM Justin Trudeau falls. He is wearing a white shirt and blue tie and dark brown slacks. From my vantage point, he falls on his back and his feet are pointed directly at me. He raises his head a little. Just then, a reporter squats down and interviews him.
A large crowd and Justin Trudeau faces them in the center wearing an off white blazer. I am standing to his left. He gives me two fistbumps.
Then underground parking, a large black snowplow truck with red rimmed tires makes a turn. There is snow on the ground. A hockey puck sails past.
Then looking at one place na large wide hall with windows on either side. "This is Justin Trudeau's healing place. And this is Justin Trudeau's resting place." Resting meaning relaxing, not dead. The resting place elicited laughter. Weird dream.
Then I go to a cannabis dispensary. There is a strain of weed that is red in color being sold there. I see iJustine and Brookers standing to the left of me at the cashiers till. They say hi to me.
Afternoon nap 3 pm
I was sitting on a couch style seat made of stone mounted on a pillar high above the ground. A cliff is to the right at the same level as the couch. I am reading a sign that is also mounted on a pillar to the left side of the stone couch. All of a sudden my handicapped girlfriend jumps onto the couch from the cliff to help me read the sign. I panic, "How can she get back to the cliff?" All of a sudden a very friendly large giant rips the couch off at the pillar and shakes the couch and me and my girlfriend fall onto a large balcony area behind and somewhat below us.
There is a math quiz book. It is a thin softcover book about 8 inches by ten inches looking like a coffee table book for children. Turn the pages and answer the math questions. A lady appears and says "The last answer is the pies I baked." I forget that and turn the pages, turning them from left to right Chinese book style rather than right to left, Western book style. The very last pages of the book are all orange. The question is 9 x 4. There are 4 stickers one on top of another separated by an inch on the left page of the book. I hear a roar. The pages will show a Tyrannosaurus if the question is correctly answers. I am about to press the second sticker from the top which reads 36 but a female tells me to peel off the price tag stickers covering the bottom two stickers. The very last stickers shows a black haired lady the black hair tied back in a bun. A cartoon caption from her mouth says, "I like to bake pies." Then dream over. I never saw the Tyrannosaurus. Surreal dream.
Tuesday, April 5, 2022
Night time. I was watching a strange monster movie. At the end of the movie there was a barbeque outside the house I was in. I didn't go. A Beatles movie shown on a large screen outdoors was part of that barbeque.
When the barbeque was over, people were leaving. I saw my sister walk past, down some stairs and out some double doors at the bottom of the stairs. I called to her. She ignored me.
Then my brother was walking with a famous blonde newscaster to give her a ride home. I won't name her as to not sound too crazy. I was somewhat jealous of that.
Cloudy day. Then I saw the blonde newscaster sitting in the back of a public transit bus, starboard side windowseat. Another lady was sitting next to her. Some other people were sitting on the bus. I sat at the very back of the starboard side seats that was facing sideways. Another person I don't know sat to the right of me. To his right sat the newscasters husband. I was saying something to the newscaster. The female newscaster was crying. I assured her that I like her and am a fan. At one point the lady sitting to the left of the blonde newscaster placed her right leg over the legs of the newscaster.
I was in Coquitlam at night. Then I met a couple who had a small outdoors party. I told them about missing the barbeque. Then I told a story, strange story. "Years ago on a cloudy day, I had a few tabs of acid and a bit of hash and some weed with me. The Police confiscated it. But afterwards I came back to Coquitlam and while the Police were all in a large one storey beige colored school building, I sensed that they were giving a presentstion, there was an RCMP Police hat on a picnic table. I lifted the hat and found my stash of acid, hash and weed and put it in my pocket. I ran away quickly so as to not be discovered."
Of course this story never actually happened but as I told it in the dream, I thought that it did happen because dreams usually seem so real.
Then my cousin Tom was there too. I was seated at the right hand side of the man of the couple. My cousin Tom was seated at the left. I was in front of the man, my left side facing towards him. There was a picnic table between us and two glasses of water. One for me and one for my cousin. The man grabbed me at the back of the throat and forced my head down as if to force me to drink the water which I suspected had Lsd in it. He didn't do that to my cousin Tom. We drank the water. As I drank, I noticed two small egg shaped pebbles in the water which were tiny white pebbles and on the pebbles were drawn the face of grey aliens, the large eyes and a small mouth.
Weird long vivid dream. I think I must be going crazy.
I might as well name the newscasters. The lady newscaster was Randene Neill and her husband is Squire Barnes.
I have a real life story of the newscaster Randene Neill. On the day I dropped the ecstacy tablet in 2008, I watched the Noon News. As soon as a dropped the tablet, about a minute later, the News mentioned RCMP E division.
As I started to feel the effect of the tablet rise, it's called rolling, about 45 minutes later, Randene Neill said "He's loaded." Not referring to me of course but to something on the News. I was too flustered and overwhelmed so I turned the News off. I wish I would have watched it all the way to the end. Maybe they would have given some offhand advice through the wording of the stories they would have been presenting.
Wednesday, April 6
Believe it or not. You'll probably think I'm crazy or making this up.
Last night I dreamed of the British Royal family. I was in the clouds in front of a grey stoned palace. The center of the palace had a huge door. Then a member of the BRF floated down next to me, I think it was a young Queen Elizabeth wearing long light blue robes and a crown. Then another Royal Princess was besides me to my left. I don't know which Royal Princess, Princess Margaret, Princess Anne, I'm not sure. She was also wearing a crown and light blue robes.
There was more to the dream. It wasn't royal. I don't remember it now.
Great dream. If Royalty appears in your dreams it means you are more blessed, protected and stronger, braver and smarter than you think.
Like Scotiabank says, "You're richer than you think."
Thursday, April 7, 2022
Weird as ever.
I was in a super large van with a couple of hippies from a cannabis dispensary.
At one point I was in another room of the van. The wall had a window. A very young Native lady was lying down on a bed, her head in the window. There was a hippie guy on the other side of the window. She was lying down on her stomach, her feet pointed towards me. She was naked. I saw her ass and vagina etc. Being the guy that I am, I gave her ass a feel. Strange dream for sure. It seems I have better sex in my dreams than I do in real life which is sad. But at least I'm getting it somewhere, I guess.
Friday, April 8, 2022
I traveled to Poland. There was a guide with me. We went to a stadium. There was a large oval table in the middle of the stadium at night. It was a convention. I was to give a presentation at that table.
Then I went to Japan. Night time. A Japanese lady in a dark blue kimono gave me a pastry treat. I said, "Arigato." I sensed that they were thinking that I said the word wrong with the wrong accent point. I said it like Ahree gah toe.
I was given a concert ticket to see a Willie Nelson concert in Vancouver the next day. I thought that I didn't really know Willie Nelson's music but that I might enjoy the concert.
Daytime. White cloudy sky. In a parking lot in Japan. A lot of cars were parked in a row. The right side of the cars were facing me. In each of the cars were a bunch of young Japanese guys. They weren't gangsters but they were edgy.
I told them about my concert ticket. "What songs did Willie Nelson sing?" they asked. I said, "Georgia On My Mind." I was thinking of King George 6 when I said that. They all looked impressed.
I gave a patronizing look, thinking they weren't all that great. Then I stopped myself. 'Why do I often think that of people? It isn't that they are Asian, I've thought that of White people too. I have to stop doing that.' They all looked at me. One of the Japanese guys had drank tan skin and a thin mustache and beard.
Another weird dream where I woke up thinking I committed a crime.
I wasn't sure if Georgia on my Mind was actually a song Willie Nelson sang. I checked on the internet and indeed it is. My dream was right!
Poland and Japan are countries that either once had or still have a Monarchy. After waking up from this dream I saw a London walk video. The video took place at night. I saw a sign, it read Poland Street.
Saturday, April 9, 2022
Major Royal dream.
Night time. I was with my girlfriend. Then she was turned into a black and white cow. White with large black spots. There was a stage with some Royal people. In front of the stage and stage left was a set of stairs going upwards. My girlfriend as a cow ran up those stairs. I chased after her passing the stage with Royal people and barely gave that stage a glance as I was looking for my girlfriend.
Daytime. Then my girlfriend ran into an airplane. It was a commercial jetliner. She ran to the front of the plane. I sensed that Prince William and Princess Kate would be at the front of the airplane and I was right. I had to go past a few sections to get to the front of the plane. At the front of the plane, my girlfriend as a cow was there and so was Prince William sitting at the very front and he had a window seat. Princess Kate was seated to his right. I asked Prince William if I could go to London with him. He said, "Ask my mother."
Then I saw Princess Diana for just a moment, young and with a slightly chubby face.
Then it was night time. I saw the Queen Mother. She was wearing a white dress. I thought she was dead yet in the dream she seemed so quick, so alive. It was the old version of her with curly white hair and she was wearing a small gold crown. She was running into a house. She asked me to carry her books. It was a stack of 4 hardcover books. I dropped them and picked them up. I saw a computer book on the ground and picked that up too and put it on top of her books. I went into a small cottage with furniture which was where the Queen Mother ran into.
Then nighttime in London. I was here in London! I thought I could live here but I wondered if I would have enough money or income to make it. I thought about going to school in London. I was on a London street at night. Lots of youths about.
Then outside next to a building, maybe a Church I saw a white stagecoach parked on the street. There were two horses in front of it. I moved to stand looking at the stagecoach from a certain angle which would remind me of a previous major Royal dream I had of a white stagecoach and two horses. As I stood at that angle, I said, "That's the money shot!"
Then I awoke and drifted back to sleep on and off. At one point I saw a close up of the face of a dark grey statue, it's right side facing me. It was the statue of King Rama 2 of Thailand. He had a scowling face with large lips which I recognized. Don't tell me that is another person who died a hundred years before I was born but knows about me, just like Prince Albert. How could people who died before I was born appear so vividly in my dreams. How could they know me? Why would they even care about me as much to appear in my dreams? Very strange indeed.
This morning I clicked on to a random London walks video and saw this. Thai. Is it a sign of my dream? A confirmation?
All these Royal images from my brain. I wonder if I am going crazy. Am I going mad? What do dreams of Royalty mean? I woke up in fear.
In reality I don't really want to go to London. Too overwhelming. I can't afford it. London is a large sprawling city. Once you get there, it's difficult to get out, I think.
This morning after the dream, I searched the internet for 'waking up in fear'. I clicked on to an article. This ad appeared which so much reminded me of my London dream last night.
Life and the future and getting old really scares me. I think that my life is out of control. Getting old, me always helping the handicapped lady, my smoking tobacco and last night I fell off the wagon and smoked some pot. I used to have no problem with smoking pot. But now smoking pot makes me think that I'm an addict and i don't want to be that. I am really fearful of my life and what's to come.
Tuesday, April 12
Another unbelievable dream. Royal. I shook my head when I woke after this dream because it is too crazy.
I was in a room at night. There was a wooden pillar and a small wooden table in front of the pillar. To the right of the table, I saw the present King of Thailand when he was young. He was wearing a white military uniform and kneeling. He looked young and handsome, hair perfect. Then he quickly disappeared a couple of seconds later and in his place, his father, the previous King of Thailand now passed. He looked like he had one eye bigger than the other. Their right side was facing towards me as they were kneeling in profile.
Then there was another small wooden table about four feet in front of the other table in front of the pillar. This other table was against the wall and had some food on it. The Queen of Thailand was there and she asked me to pick up some things for the dinner party. She was wearing a white dress and a crown. It was all so very fast.
In dreams whenever I dream of them, it is the Queen of Thailand who usually speaks to me whereas the others are silent. One time in a dream I visited them with my friend Harold. They didn't want to meet Harold but accepted me. The Queen of Thailand said about me, "He looks so skinny."
Another time in a dream at a large table we were at for lunch. A servant offered me a bowl of goldfish shaped soft jellied cakes. The King and Queen were seated at the head of the table, the King at the center, the Queen to his left. She said to me, "Scoop some rice." I went to the other end of the table where I saw a large rice bowl looking like the bowl in a rice cooker. There was a large wooden spoon in that bowl. When I went back to the head of the table, the King wasn't there anymore, only the Queen. This dream happened a couple of weeks before he died.
Then I went to another place. Vancouver at night. I had some marijuana joints in my pocket. A Police officer asked about them at the same time not really caring. I put both hands in my blue jeans pants pocket as I kneeled.
Real life. I found out today that two days ago, on Sunday, the handicapped lady who is French, I called her Frenchy, died. I wish I was kinder to her but she was grumpy a lot of the time. She often ignored me and I ignored her. The last time I ever saw her, I said, "As a friend, I love you." She said, "As a friend, I love you too."
I often hesitate to talk about my Royal dreams. My life is crazy enough as it is. People will think I'm crazy or making it up. I do describe details.
Questions. Why does Royalty appear in my dreams even though I am poor and on welfare? I thought they would only appear to rich people.
Why does the British Royal family appear in my dreams? I thought they would only appear to White people.
Why does the Royal Family of Thailand appear to me in dreams? I thought they would only appear to Thai people and I am not Thai.
I think that a lot of people in Thailand have had Royal dreams.
When I first went to Thailand I saw large billboards or signs of the Thai Royal family on the highway framed in large carved white stone sign frames. They seemed scary to me at first. I thought of the words dictatorship and cult of personality. But now when I think of them, I think of them as things that are very loving, divine and blessed.
Royalty appears in my dreams because I have had a lot of positive effects on a very large number of people through my writings and my animated cartoons. A number that I could not imagine. YouTube does not at all accurately describe the number of people who watched my videos. It is a lot more. File sharing has killed the bottom line. But the spirits of Royalty do fully know of the extent of my fame and the effects that my work namely writing and artwork and my presence on this Earth has made to others and to the positive.
My artwork probably inspired some to get into art or to be better artists. My writings probably inspired people to become writers or to become better writers.
And Royalty spirits knows about my dreams, their meaning and extent of the effect of them.
It remains to be seen whether having Royal dreams means that I myself will one day be rich and have a BMW. There seems to be no signs of it so far. My wealth fantasies are kind of banal anyways.
My dream: If I was rich I'd live at a nice place near UBC and I'd try to get a 1988 model BMW 325i, red and 4 door and standard transmission although I would settle for automatic transmission. Modern BMWs look like every other car. During the 80s, BMW's had a distinct look.
This is the dream I would ask God to grant me. Potentially I could be sitting on a gold mine if my cartoons and writings give me royalties. However the stealing nature of a lot of members of the human species make me doubtful this would ever happen. I shouldn't focus on how big the human species is. I should focus on how big my God is. If I ever collect royalties for my works on the internet, I could be rich. I suspect that the pernicious purloining certain members of the human species have converted my works into NFTs which they sell on the dark net. It's a money laundering scam for them. It's my digital intellectual property. If I never get royalties for my works then me being born was a big regrettable mistake and I'm glad then, that I never had any children. I'm glad then, that I didn't do my part to perpetuate the scurrilous human species. I wouldn't take my life because of that although that would be the philosophical prevailing logic. Life is a grim nasty set up, its a ghastly wretched scene. My life belongs to God and its in his hands when I go. People who have had NDEs in circumstances that would have killed most people were told, "It's not your time" and came back to life very much against the odds. Unless God ordain it, nothing can take a person away before its their time. If a person is alive, they still have a mission in life and God has a schedule of life for all of us.
I'm not a perfect person. I have quite a few issues.
Wednesday, April 13
Night. I was at a house. I was supposed to pick up somethings on a kitchen counter. I didn't. I had something else. Three small stiff wires connected to a small paper loop on top. These wires were to connect to a red spinning top. I was supposed to get a ride somewhere. A yellow convertible pulled into the driveway. A young Black man was driving the car. Then two intruders with guns burst into the house. Then two young rescuers appeared, a young man and woman. They had a shield of purple blue light around them and zapped the intruders.
Then I saw Bill Murray quickly. Then I went into a room. I was the Harold Ramis character in Stripes and the young lady in the room with me was Sean Young. I had a chance to reenact the romantic scene between them in Stripes yet this was in a classroom with venetian blinds along the windows. The young lady was sitting on a desk, her left side facing me. She was wearing a shirt. Her pants were down and she was wearing white underwear. I reached around her with my right arm and petted her right hip.
Thursday, April 14
I was at a Japanese restaurant. My current girlfriend, a lady temporarily in a wheelchair was there although she wasn't in a wheelchair in the dream. It was night time. We placed a complex order with a lot of things. I was to help arrange them and bring them to our table. I complained that as usual I had to do the complex work, thinking on my feet, assembling the order while my girlfriend just sat there. Duh! Then a waiter brought something we didn't order to our table. I told him we didn't order it and he took the order away. My girlfriend said, "You should have told him to fuck off." She then kissed me on the neck.
I wake up at 1 am. When I fell asleep about an hour and a half later:
I was at some place I don't quite remember.
Then I saw PM Justin Trudeau. He was lecturing about something. At the time it was intense and detailed although I don't remember it now. I do remember seeing PM Justin Trudeau. Anytime I see an important celebrity in a dream, I remember.
What I do remember was then meeting a representative of President Donald Trump. She was a lady wearing a dark blue business blazer. She had shoulder length curly brown hair. She said that her name was YORN. Then I saw President Trump walk past in front of us walking from left to right. She said that I was invited to the United States. She went into the back of a van. Before she left I held her right hand and kissed it a few times.
Then I was in an elementary school library. I had to find something. I saw the card catalogue drawers.
Then on the streets during the day. I saw my old friend Shawn. He was about ten years older than me but he was a hard core crack user in the downtown eastside. I don't know if he's still alive. I saw him in my dream. He was wearing a white long sleeve shirt that was unbuttoned and a white tshirt underneath that. He was also wearing black jeans. He said I was invited to visit all around Vancouver Island.
Then I saw my old friend from Dawson Creek. She was a barmaid. She is short and has blonde hair. Her name is T. Name undisclosed here. She was wearing a white buttoned long sleeve shirt. She said I was invited to visit Dawson Creek. She then hugged and talked to someone else. I leaned against a brick wall. Then she opened her arms and gave me a hug. She then took down her pants and I knelt down and locked her genitalia. Her genitalia in the dream was shaved and looked like a peach. Perfect. I kicked her front. Then she bent over and I licked her genitalia from behind.
Then I saw a very dirty washroom although all things, the sink, the toldet and the bath rub was white colored porcelain. Very white like bleached.
In all cases, the white underwear of the Stripes lady, Shawn's white shirt and tshirt and T's white shirt were all very white. It was perfectly white like it was bleached. Ray Bradbury would have called it a white ice cream shirt. The PMH Atwater master vibration of the dream world. The dream world displays a different set of physics.
I woke up slightly scared after having the dream. So vivid, so crazy, so full of details.
Friday, April 15, 2022
Day time. Early morning. I saw King Kong or a large gorilla running towards a house and into the house. Some Police Officers with guns and uniforms and Police hats ran after that gorilla.
Then in the middle of the street in front of that house I stood up and fainted. I fell backwards, the back of my head hitting the ground.
Then when I was lying supine on the street, a large Tyrranousaurus Rex ran up from behind and opened its mouth. The bottom of its large tongue was draped around me. Then a female Tyrranousaurus Rex ran up from behind too and licked the left side of my neck. "He's delicious. Should we eat him now?" I was bracing for the feeling of being brought up and chewed to pieces in the Tyrranosaurus's mouth. "Later." The male Tyrannosaurus said. I sensed them speaking but telepathically.
I was then dragged down the street. The back claw of the left foot of the male Tyrannosaurus was pulling me down the street and that claw was wrapped over my right arm bicep. My right arm was over my head flat on the ground, the male Tyrannosaurus methodically not lifting its claw off the ground.
I then escaped and hid under some dirt that was next to the house against the left side of the house. The Tyranosauruses then found me. But the Drea was over. I wasn't eaten.
This dream could mean that today later on hours after I had this dream, I got an iPhone 7 and got hooked up to the Apple iPhone system. That's how I got apps from the Apple play store. The Apple system can be likened to a large dragon of a Tyrannosaurus Rex of a system.
Life is full of surprises. When I woke up this morning, I could never have imagined that I would get an iPhone today. For months I worried about how to get a phone card to use the payphone at the Library to call Vancouver to call hotels to ask about rental rates and vacancy availability and if they would accept people who didn't have a credit card, ie me. Now I have an iPhone with an unlimited calls all across Canada rate.
But what about calling Thailand? The salesman at the Lucky mobile kiosk said I could use an app like What's App or Skype to call Thailand as they don't have an international calls phone plan.
What may have triggered this dream is watching a Garnet Schulhauser video last night when he mentioned a race of humans that coexisted with the dinosaurs. They didn't coexist all that well as at least one time, the humans had to run behind a wall of their fortified city when a Tyrranosaurus chased them and they narrowly escaped.
A lot of what Garnet Schulhauser says is just plain bizarre.
Sunday, April 17, 2022
Why is it that I'm always dreaming about a certain family of cousins? That is if they're my cousins. I never saw my birth certificate. All I have is their word that they're my cousins.
A staircase. There is something, plastic multicolored box, in the middle of the stairs. One of my cousins was there. At the very top of the staircase is my aunt who died in January 2021. She was wearing a dark grey colored raincoat. She was just checking up on things.
Really weird. I was with some Natives at night. They said that outside the RCMP Buffalo wanted to meet me. I went to the yard at night. I saw a rainbow colored two legged buffalo, half buffalo half man. I had given it a hug for a second our foreheads were pressed together.
Wednesday, April 20, 2022
Me and Heather who is my girlfriend who is now temporarily in a wheelchair moved to a large suite of rooms in Vancouver. The next day, a Native couple was moving in. They said that me and Heather don't have to move out. We could all live in the suite together. Heather rolled her wheelchair behind a wet bar that was located in the suite. When she rolled back again, she was young and slim with dark curly hair. I petted her back.
Thursday, April 21, 2022
I was sleeping in the glassed entrance way of a Woolworth store.
Then I was at a large thrift store with yellow painted walls similar to Value Village. I saw a young girl of ten walking with a very young child of five. I stroked the ten year old girl's cheek. She said, "You give me an orgasm." I said to her, "That's an inappropriate thing to say to me as I'm almost 52 years old!"
I walked through the store. I saw a couple of Star Wars action figures. My OCD hoarding mentality reared it's ugly head and I pocketed a couple of the action figures which I thought were keepers.
I looked for that ten year old girl again just for curiosity. I saw her. She had morphed into a 19 year old teenage girl. She was standing in frt of a young man of 20 leaning against the wall. She undid his fly and brought out his cock and was sucking it. Then he had a dark tan dildo in his right hand and she sucked that and his cock simultaneously, sucking two cocks. Weird, batshit crazy spastic dream! I know!
Then I saw a scene in this town at night that looked like Carrall and Alexander Street in Vancouver. I was looking North. There were fewer street lamps and fewer and smaller buildings than in Vancouver. I sensed that the Woolworth building that I had been sleeping in was a few blocks to the left where Canada Place is. I said, "This town looks a lot like Vancouver. I so much want to move to Vancouver."
I woke up from this dream feeling afraid and that maybe I'm going crazy.
Friday, April 22, 2022
I was at a party at night with a lot of people. There were bottles of booze being distributed. One of the bottles was a rectangular bottle with booze that looked like and had the consistency of chocolate milk. A dark haired girl with shoulder length hair at the party said I shouldnt drink the chocolate milk booze but I drank it.
Maybe what triggered the dream was that too days ago, I found a half full carton of chocolate milk on an elevator in the mall. I drank it.
Saturday, April 23, 2022
Darth Vader was in a room in a house. There was an open doorway with a concealed stairway going up and to the right. Darth Vader was expecting Darth Maul to come down the staircase. There was a howling scream coming from the stairway and then instead of Darth Maul, Boba Fett emerged. Then I saw myself looking at frames of an animation app animating another Star Wars cartoon.
Later on that day, I saw a Star Wars storm trooper sticker on a white SUV. Two minutes earlier or later I would have missed it. I stood and looked at it instead of walking on because last night I had a Star Wars dream.
Sunday, April 24, 2022
Mick Jagger visited me. He had long slightly curly long dark brown hair and he was wearing a leather jacket just as he appeared in the 1981 video Baby Please Don't Go with Muddy Waters. He visited and then left and saying that he would return to bring me to McDonald's. When he returned, we walked outside at night. He told me to watch over some papers in a canvas bag that he had and not to sell it. Mick Jagger got into a car on the right hand side and that is the side the drivers seat is in England. As Mick Jagger I saw that his arms were cut off at the elbows. He had no forearms!
I went home and forgetting what he said, decided to leave the papers with my cousins, the Wongs. I told my cousins the papers were from Mick Jagger.
I saw Mick Jagger again and told him I left the papers with my cousins. He said to me, "I told you not to sell the papers or give them away." I said, "I guess I fucked up. I expect to be killed." I was going to ask him about Charlie Watts. I saw Charlie Watts at the bottom of some cement stairs outdoors at night. The stairs went down to a landing that was next to a building with a large glass entrance. The top of Charlie Watts head was cut off and there was a working record player on it.
I can see why most people won't admit to remembering their dreams even if they did. Dreams can be very scary and if people admit them, then they think that other people will think that they are crazy.
It takes guts to admit dreams. I think I may be in over my head in writing down my dreams. At times I thought that I would be killed for writing my dreams. Don't ever lose that imagination.
The idea of getting killed is a very recurrent one in Hollywood movies.
Statistically, one has a one in 19,000 chance of being killed which is way less than 1% or else one in a hundred.
I read that women have even scarier dreams than men. When men have dreams they are sometimes having sex with women and sometimes even fucking women. When women have dreams it is sometimes about sex with men and getting fucked.
That's the society culture double standard. If a man has sex with a woman, then he's a player. If a woman has sex with men then she's a slut. Women mostly won't admit these kinds of dreams to other men, women would most likely admit having these types off dreams to other women.
If a man has sex with a woman, there are no physics consequences besides the possibility of getting an STD. If a woman has sex with a man, she runs the risk of getting an STD and also of getting pregnant with all the evils attendant on that. In Shakespeare's time, 1 in 50 women died during childbirth. Today that risk is about 1 in 1,500.
In that way, it's scary for a woman to be a woman. But of course she's not legally required to get pregnant. If it's forced on her she could take the morning after pill or else get an abortion during the first trimester.
I wonder if women feel a biological need to get pregnant. It's like they have something, why not use it, it would be weird to have something and then not to use it. That explains why the World is getting worse with overpopulation.
I'm glad I never got any woman pregnant, not that I know of. I see the World and society and humanity as getting worse with more crazy homeless people and expensive and unattainable costs of housing. I lucked out in never having any children. Since I'm the only child of my mother, I'm the last of the line when it comes to passing on her mitochondrial DNA unless she has a sister who had any daughters. That, I don't know about.
Mitochondrial DNA or motherly DNA can be traced back to Lucy the ape in Africa. Men carry it but can not pass it on. Women carry it and pass it on.
Wake up at 5 am. Sleep again at 6:30
My girlfriend and I were watching a movie. Then in the lobby as she was about to pay for the movie using a tablet, a lady behind her punched in the movie code thus paying for her movie.
There was a bakery in the next adjoining section of the theater to the left. I was about to order something. I saw a cinnamon bun in the shape of a cone. It was made of cardboard as it turns out. Some caramel dripped on the floor. I scooped some up with my fingers and licked a bit of it. Then I saw hairs and other detritus attached to it. I flung it in a garbage can. Then I went to the washroom to wash off the detritus.
Then I was in Thailand with my girlfriend. I saw a Thai man. I said, "Khop khun kup. Kup pom." meaning, "Thank you, I acknowledge." He said, "Hin." meaning "I see."
Then crossing the street. There was a Thai Policeman there wearing a brown Police uniform and and a brown Police hat. He was standing and facing away from me. I saw on the ground three Buddha pictures in a frame. One of the pictures had Buddha with a blue colored bowl, another one with a purple bowl and another one with a white bowl. With my scrounging hoarder mentality, I picked up two of the pictures, the one with the white and purple bowl because they were Royal colors. I then saw a photograph of a Thai family sitting together, I don't know if the picture was of the Royals or not. It kind of looked like it. I picked it up. The family was all wearing blue colored clothing. One of them was wearing a blue thick cotton shirt with a diamond weave in black thread stitching.
Tuesday, April 26, 2022
I saw a silver UFO with a yellow blob on it. It seemed friendly. I got on it. Then it flipped on the other side. I got off and I heard the word "AIDS". Unsettling.
Then I was on a film set which was a space shop. A bunch of people were on it. I pitched ideas. "We found space signals. Not one or a few but millions."
I saw Suzie. I kissed her but French kissed her. There were other people there watching. She admised me to turn my head to the side to kiss her that way as to conceal it. She said, "Men always go bold for the tongue." Then she opened her mouth and kicked her tongue at the right hand corner of her mouth. "The signals are not lights but invisible electric signals."
The space ship film set was a glassed in skywalk in the middle of a neon filled downtown at night.
Then other people got on the ship. One young lady got on, her name was Fematina.Then a lot of other people got on. I heard the Madonna song Lucky Star was playing. Maybe because I sleep with the music station on.
I told the group, "There are 7 alien species watching us. 5 are hostile but two of them are more good and powerful than the hostile ones are hostile." Afterwards I said to someone, "I'm a W.R.A.E. WRiter, Actor, Executive, on this film."
As for the other people getting on the ship, the film was a hit TV series so in the second season a lot of people wanted to get onboard this successful project.
That made me think of my cartoons. Maybe a lot of people are making money off of my cartoons. A lot of people "want a piece" of my successful project or any successful project. That makes me feel scared. I can't kill myself but I otherwise have to live another 20 years give of take a few years or possibly longer than that? Who knows? I don't know if I have the strength and courage to live the rest of my life. I wake up scared every day. Being scared comes from knowing I'm in an awful situation. I don't have to but my personality makes me compelled to work for my handicapped lady friend. I have no one else but to blame. I don't have the heart to abandon her so I'm left to live a life of work work work for the indefinite future. But change is the only constant. I won't always be working for her. But then what's in store for the rest of my life? I fear the future. I see no good future.
Thursday, April 28, 2022
The atmospheric setting of this dream is that this whole dream happens at night.
Dream about Cambodia. I saw some faces that had been shot. Ashen faces, open mouths with half of the front of the mouth melted away, nose partially worn off and sunken ashen eyes.
Then upon leaving the room with the faces, there was a gold Buddha on a small shelf ledge on the wall. I places a stick of incense next to the incense that was already there.
This dream I had was on the morning of the day I went to Vancouver. I think, for some odd reason that Cambodia is a death omen. Yeah, sure, that's why the population of Cambodia is more than Canada. Cambodia is actually a very prolific country. Cambodia is steeped in magic it can be intensely bad magic but also intensely good magic. Lucky lucky. Happy happy.
Because the part of me that believed Cambodia is a death omen, I was scared that I was going to die in Vancouver that day. I didn't.
On April 30, 1975 the Khmer Rouge rolled into Phnom Penh and began their hellish takeover. This year is the 47th anniversary of that. Perhaps it was on this date, April 28, that they started their two days voyage that would result in the incursion of Phnom Penh. Scary stuff for sure. The dream was scary. Also in the dream I briefly saw the Cambodian leader PP or at least I think I did. Sure enough to write about the possibility of it here. Anyways, that leader is a bad omen.
Saturday, April 30, 2022
The atmospheric setting of this dream is that this whole dream happens at night.
I saw U.S. President George W Bush! He was wearing a gold cream blazer with matching pants. He was sitting cross legged on the floor in a room with the glass sliding doors of that room open. He was sitting with a lot of people on either side of him but no one was sitting in front of him. I looked at him and he looked at me and looked away.
When I looked again, he was gone.
I was in a room standing next to a rectangular table. Someone else who was there, a man, said, "The Police know that those who are ashamed are telling the truth. There are those ashamed because they did great things and there are those who did great things who feel ashamed." Weird.
I saw a coin fall into a sewer grate. When I opened the sewer grate to get that coin, I saw a bunch of other coins about 6 in total.
YouTube said coins are a sign of angels.
Then I tried to go to a Chinese restaurant I used to work at. I had a grey plastic camera but dropped the camera face first. When I picked up the camera, the front lens glass was completely broken and off of the camera. I was then thinking, "Why use a camera when I have a tablet?"
