Friday, December 3
I don't want to remember my dreams and the past few days, it worked. I don't remember them at all.
Dream: I went to another town. Hanging around, walking around. I noticed that it was July and I wanted to give a one month notice this month to return to my hometown. I didn't have to stay here.
Then I went back to the room I was staying in which was a large room with couches and a few other people staying there overnights as well. In that room, someone was riding a long non electric toy Harley Davidson motorcycle. I was given a chance to ride it. I asked someone, "What happens if it does a wheelie?" as I did a wheelie. The big thick plastic tire was touching the ceiling.
Then I went into this room. 4 women were there. The one to the most extreme right was an old lady, wearing no shirt. Her nipples were barely visible, they were a soft pink and the color blended in with her tan colored skin. She was sexy and an older, heck, old woman, and I am attracted to old women.
They said I should stay til at least August. That old lady whom I think I met before, she was an old bar maid, was the enticement for me to stay.
End of dream.
Dreams are weird and unsettling.
Saturday, December 4, 2021
At an airport a line of customs agents behind a desk pre departure. I am travelling with a couple of friendly gangster Chinese guys who recommend me travelling to Thailand. Just before traveling, at the customs agent desk, a customs agent inspects my belongings and finds a note, "I will not give gifts every day." He then bans my trip to Thailand for a period of six months until Christmas. I then wander the streets at night.
End of dream.
Tuesday, December 7
I was going to see a movie. I had an argument with the female ticket seller. She was saying a bunch of numbers. I just wanted to pay for the ticket.
The movie I went in to see was called The Italian Mafia. A bunch of guys were there. The theatre was small with a few couches. A large dog was laying down on one of the couches. I petted it.
Then went outside, dark cloudy day. I picked up some glass and put it in my left hand pants pocket. I got on the bus. The large pieces of olive colored wine bottle glass in my pocket felt sharp and painful when I touched it with my hand.
I think the dream means I went to see House of Gucci which was an Italian themed movie. Glass garbage means for me to stop picking up garbage.
Wednesday, December 9
I was at a University campus outdoors. I was piggybacking my girlfriend who is fat and heavy. I love her. Walking around piggybacking her. At one point I looked down what I thought to be a staircase. It was a drop without stairs. Best to avoid that!
Walking with her. At one point her shoe was dangling off her right foot. The shoe was put on again. Walking down some stairs. Some University students were there.
Then I was in Dawson Creek. A The Walking Dead theme. Scary.
Thursday, December 9
Peaceful dream.
I was at a hotel about to leave. I gathered up all my Star Wars action figures which took awhile. I was reattaching arms that had fallen off some action figures. My father and younger sister was there too. He was to drive us away. He asked if we could use my bank card. I picked up some garbage off the floor of the one room, one floor hotel which was more of a entire small house than a usual hotel room. I wondered if I was up to the task of escorting my father and sister home. I was young, age eighteen. I was then washing some black smudge off my face.
My father was waiting outside the hotel with his car.
The dream ended before we even left the hotel.
The dream means that when I die, my father and possibly younger sister would escort me home. The hotel was the life I am living now. But that we didn't leave yet meant that I am going to live for quite a few more years. But when the time comes my father would be there.
Wednesday, December 8
Night time.
At a Chinese banquet. A lady had a white cake in the shape of a large whipped cream swirl. I asked to have a piece. She tore off a small piece for me.
Some Chinese waiters wearing black vests, black pants, white shirts and black bow ties. dancing between pillars. This is where it really gets really weird. I was dancing too. One of the waiters invited me closer to him to dance. I said, "I was molested when I was young so I don't really trust men." Now this isn't true. I don't know why that came up in the dream. I am heterosexual and slightly homophobic though.
Then I saw a very Chinese family with very Chinese faces sitting at a table. Some children were there too also with very Chinese faces. I said, "I'm glad that I didn't have any children."
This was all at the same Chinese banquet.
Friday, December 10
Night time.
I was lying down in the backseat of a car. Another lady was on top of me, blonde, top less, breasts. The back left hand side car door was open. Another blonde lady looked in.
Then I saw my neighbor behind this second blonde lady. His left arm was wrapped around her exposing her breasts then covering them up again and then exposing them again.
Angry that she was making me jealous perhaps to play mind games with me I had an argument with her and called her an egotistical troublemaker. I wouldn't speak to her.
Then me lying down on the floor of a large van the second blonde lady she was on top of me, her breasts and all. I got up to spray some large flies in the van. Then over to the left side of the van she sat on top of a counter. I went to her and she kissed me.
Some ladies were cooking a meal for us to eat before we left. I woke up before the meal was prepared.
The Bible talks about angels cooking food for people.
Sunday December 12
I went to visit my cousins who were in a yard. They had a shelf of rare books.
I dreamed this the night before the day I heard that Ane Rice died.
Thursday, December 16
I called a lady I knew from high school named Vivian using a black rotary land-line telephone sitting on a small round table outside in front of a wooden wall in a grassy yard. I asked if I could speak to Vivian. "No." the voice on the other end said. A man was standing to the right of me during this short call. Who was it? I don't know. Probably my spirit guide as usual.
Friday December 17,
Night time.
On a bus at the back exit about to leave. Three naked ladies were there. Their vaginas were large, shaved and prominent.
Then after, I had another dream where I saw my jeans had huge irregular shaped holes made by mice. My jeans already have tiny holes. I checked my jeans the next morning. Nope, no large holes.
How could I write about such smutty dreams?
Saturday December 18
Night time.
Visiting some East Indians. I learned some East Indian words even some new ones I don't remember now. I said to an East Indian who was leaving a large circular banquet table full of food, "Sat shri akal." He just went on walking and left.
This was the day I went to Sidney BC and went to an East Indian restaurant. It was empty so I left.
Sunday, December 19.
Night time.
I was in Thailand again. I was on a couch and saw my friend Songkran lying on the ground wearing a blue shirt. I told them, "I can't believe that I'm in Thailand. I'm in Thailand again because I had $5,000 to spend. If I have another $5, 000, I'll come back again."
Then in the alley entrance of the Northeast corner of Pender and Main on Pender Street and South of Main Street in Vancouver, night time, a white car with two Chinese gangsters in the car pulled out. I ran and accidentally stepped on the hood of the car making it tilt downward. I was very sorry and apologized profusely to them. They weren't upset and baffled that I apologized. White is a royal color?
These last few dreams since Wednesday December 8 are only snippets. I forgot the rest of the dream which means my dreams aren't as vivid as they had been for some months. I no longer wake up scared from my dreams. There are unsettling elements but I don't care as much.
Why do I write about them? I don't know. Why not?
I write even about the weird embarrassing elements because I am brave enough to do so.
Night time means that in the dream, it was night time. That was the atmospheric of the dreams.
I still feel anxiety but mostly about small things that don't matter such as decisions, my compulsion to pick up garbage off of the ground and throw it in the garbage can, sometimes taking it home and throwing it in the garbage can at home, sometimes keeping it for awhile and then throwing it away. Or else I get anxieties about food. Should I go to a restaurant or not? Do I have enough in my budget to do so?
Most days I can keep my anxieties at bay for hours. Today on Sunday December 19, my anxiety has been at bay all day. Sunday vibes.
I hope to cure all of my anxieties completely one day. Or else accept them more.
Monday, December 20
I found a lost previously unpublished George Orwell book.
I was on a bus and met a Chinese family. The daughter took a real liking to me and vice versa. In the dream I was college aged and so was she. She was young, wearing a short sleeved white shirt with collar. She was young but had an old wrinkly face.
I went to McDonald's on Commercial Drive and 1st Avenue, at Il Mercado square, with her. An employee wearing a blue McDonald's hat and a matching blue uniform with thin white stripes working the lobby told me that the old manager Steve Chow had died at age 60. This person was his son. This person also told me Steve Chow reincarnated through his twin brother. The twin brother appeared and acted in a way that I inferred was mimicking Steve Chow exactly.
Then a huge Chinese banquet meal appeared. There were plates of chicken. I was scheduled to show up at the college but decided to skip it and to have this meal. The Chinese lady I met on the bus was at this meal too.
Then I was in a room. A White lady was lying next to me in bed. The Chinese lady I met on the bus was in another room. A White guy was lying on the floor next to her, a knife through his body and bleeding and dead. It was some strange set up. Yeah, dreams can get that weird.
That's all I remember and the details may not be accurate. It was a sweet dream, mostly. I wanted to not wake up and to spend more time with the Chinese lady I met on the bus in the dream.
Life is a mystery. Why would I still be alive? Why does life insist on me being alive presumably to drag me through a future that will most likely be boring, poverty ridden and I'm mostly alone and trapped in a small to medium sized town? What if the pandemic lasts forever? Why do the forces of life insist that I live through that? Couldn't God just gently whisk me away to the afterlife? It gets better. No it doesn't. Things stay the same or get worse. Things will get better is a myth. For most people. Me included. I see no hope yet it is my duty to go on living.
Wednesday, December 22, 2021
Visiting a large hardware store. My friend from long time ago, Don's younger brother was an employee there. I was shopping for Green foam nunchuks. Didn't find them. Didn't get them. As I was leaving the store a few young boys were taunting me.
That's it. A snippet. That's all I remember, thank God.
I didn't remember yesterday's dream at all. Good. At the time it seemed so clear but after waking up and throughout the day, I didn't remember any of it. Dreams are weird, nonsensical and extraneous to me. But a person needs to dream. Without dreaming at all, a person could die.
Thursday, December 23
I was in a car with some people and we all went to the United States. We stopped off at a cafe. Pho noodles was served but I ate that later.
Later I ate the Pho noodles. The proprietress said she was half Greek half Chinese. Her father was Greek and her mother was Chinese. She had a beautiful look, tan skin, distinct nose, black curly hair, but she was older, in her 40s. There was a CN train that ran outside the restaurant cafe, seen through the window. Sunny cloudy day.
Then the car took us all back to Canada.
Then I saw a Star Wars scene. Wedge Antilles was there looking lovingly down on me in an x wing fighter. The R2D2 in my x wing fighter transfered to his x wing fighter and he flew away. This touched me so much that I wept.
Then at a table with some people, someone said The Empire Strikes Back movie was traded for ice. I laughed I thought it was so funny. Mark Hamill was there in a grey Luke Skywalker costume. He handed me a Empire Strikes Back VHS videotape. I said I didn't need it as I didn't have a VCR.
Then the ice was shown. Ice is the street name for Crystal meth and a fishbowl full of green crystal meth was shown to me. I flinched away, grossed out and scared. Dream over or what I could remember of it.
A note. Two months ago I had a dream where I smoked some crystal meth. An old high school Italian acquaintance named Umberto was the meth dealer. In real life, Umberto is a calm reasonable guy. He was not a drug user at all so it was weird I had a dream of him as a drug dealer let alone a meth dealer.
The name Umberto. The last King of Italy was Umberto II reigning until 1945.
I didn't want to talk about this dream at the time because it seemed degenerate and I didn't want an omen that maybe I'd be smoking that garbage some day in the future.
Not all dreams are omens. Come on. I've had dreams where I saw celebrities who are dead, in the dream they were very much alive. Would I be seeing that in the future? I doubt it! So not all dreams are omens.
I didn't want to talk about my dreams where meth appeared because maybe the Police might think, Why are you having dreams about crystal meth?!
I doubt that too. I should have courage enough to talk about even the weirdest dreams. Usually the weirdest dreams involve personal injury or death, dreams that involve children depicted luridly, dreams that involve homosexuality and dreams that involve crystal meth. I think a lot of people have such dreams but are most afraid to talk about it.
The best dreams involve golden glowing angels, Royalty and grey aliens with UFOs and seeing favorite celebrities.
The night before I had this dream, I wrote about how could a disease that came from China, covid 19, have names of strains that are Greek letters of the Greek alphabet? Seeing the half Chinese half Greek woman was me incorporating that in my dream.
Carl Jung said that it is in the dream state that we are awake, and it is in the awake state that we are asleep.
Today, a coincidence. I saw my very sweet friend Suzie. It was a miracle! I went out to get some Guinness beer for Christmas Eve and also to get some East Indian food. Then I saw her on the street! My sweet friend!
I love her. I love her even though I have doubts that she will ever be my girlfriend. However I have a plan B. In the next ten years I could meet a lady who is even better. I shouldn't lose faith, though. You never know what the future will bring.
I'm glad I didn't do myself in during times past or even last night when the News of covid seemed really dark. Yeah, right, as if I would do something like that. But if I did, I would've never seen my sweet friend on the street this morning.
I asked God to show me a sign that he exists and this would be it. If me and my sweet friend ever become more than friends, I would be willing to convert to Catholicism.
Seeing my sweet friend today is this year's Christmas miracle.
All morning I've been saying, "Oh Suzie! Oh Suzie! Oh Suzie!" etc
I haven't been like this for so long. In times past I've said, "Oh Emma! Oh Emma! Oh Emma!" etc about another lady. Love is sweet. Seeing a love is a sign that life is worth living and to never give up. You never know what life will bring. Even in the midst of a pandemic I encountered a loving sign of life's true sweet wonder. Thank God and Thank the forces of life.
I didn't really use names because Suzie has another name which she uses. I do love her. Love makes me feel alive.
Friday, December 24 Christmas Eve
Strangest dream.
Night tme
I was at a playground. I did 100 pullups on a swing set without feeling either tired or muscle aches. Then I got into a fight with a young black man on the playground but we became friends.
I sensed I was at a park at the East end of Vancouver. I then was flying fast West across town to my home in East Vancouver.
Alng th way I picked up a few things. At times I dropped the things near people on the ground on purpose. Either they saw me or didn't I don't now. Each time I did, they ran away. These things were two plastic cups with ome designs on it and a couple of transparent plastic bubbles. A these things clattered loudly when I dropped them.
I fly past my old parents place. This whole dream happened at night time. I looked in the windows strange furniture. I even passed through walls like a ghost to get a quick look inside. There as a baby in the kitchen. The furniture was covered in blue patterns on white colored cloths. The baby was swaddled in a very similar patterned cloth.
Flying across parks, seeing multicolored flowerbushes and dropping a few more things ner people, I finally reached my living quarters near Strathcona School.
Passing an apartment that resembled mine, I finally went home to my apartment.
I returned to try to sleep but I wasn't able to. I saw two more of me each wearing identical blue sweatshirts. Merge 3 or what? My cousins all of them from one family came into the room. My room has two door separated by a partial wall. My cousins entered through birth doors which were open when the entered and closed before they entered. I gathered they were living in different rooms the same apartment building. A lot of them entered and were amazed to see three of me.
A friend of my cousins a blonde lady I sensed was named Candace was a spiritual medium. She said that I wanted to go home. She said to call 877-SPIRIT. I had a light green 7-Up bottle that was bubbly inside in the shape of binoculars in a figure 8 shape I didn't remember picking up. My cousin J, she said, "I gotta go. I'm tired. I've had too much soup." I then told her that there is a lady I love named Suzie as soup and Suzie start with the same first syllable sound which was what triggered me to say it. Most cousins stayed for awhile. My cousin B was thin and not wearing a shirt and wearing black sweatpants. He entered and quickly left. He was a security guard at one time. My brother was there. I asked him about the baby I saw in the kitchen. He said that our parents were looking after a baby.
I woke up then. The dream lasted from 2:10 to 3 am which was when I woke up.
Strange vivid dream.
I saw two dopplegangers of me in the dream. Does seeing a doplegangers of me in a dream men that I will die soon? I saw a doppelganger of me in a dream in 2003. And I'm still alive.
There was one favorite cousin that I don't remember seeing in the dream.
The dream felt peaceful. In not sure that I wanted to wake up. I sort of wanted to stay in that world.
It's only 3:27 as I write this. What's the next dream for tonight?
Second dream moatly forgotten. Me as a Sherlock Holmes type character in France.
I told a friend who is a security guard that I saw my cousin who himself used to be a security guard in a dream. She told me, "He's just saying hi. When you see someone in a dream, they're just saying hi."
Monday, December 27
I entered a building that turned out to be a large UFO spaceship. Metallic White colored ceiling, medium metlic silver colored walls, and dark silver floor. The wall was rounded, curved where it met the ceiling and floor. There seemed to be no doors at all but suddenly a circular door appeared where there seemed to be none and the door slid to one side within the circular doorframe. As soon as me and my guide entered through, the door slid closed and disappeared. Some people were 327 rooms away from the entrance of this building, they could access the entrance nearly as quickly as we could who were just two or three rooms away from the entrance. I was thinking that today's architecture is primitive compared to the UFO architecture. There were no aliens on this UFO that I saw. Anywhere on the wall my guide touched, a door would be there. The door was on no fixed place on the wall, just anywhere the guide touched, a circular doorway with a sliding circular door within the doorframe emerged. Circular, like the door of a hobbit house.
Then visiting a film set.
Then I was in Vancouver, it seemed so real that I really thought I was in Vancouver but in a building that very much resembled the UFO building except there were normal doors and the ceiling and floor met the wall at 90 degree perpendicular angles as normally expected for today's architecture.
My brother was there too. We sat at a round table. There were many round tables with people sitting at them in this room in a building in Vancouver.
Then today after this dream, I found out that the James Webb space telescope was launched on December 25. I wonder if the JWST will find evidence of alien civilizations? That might not be the good thing that it at first sounds to be.
Wednesday, December 29
At a large food warehouse that was Japanese. I got a sliced giant clam off the shelf that looked like a sliced ham. When I cooked it on a frying pan, it shrank.
Then I saw a very old Don Johnson from Miami Vice. He was wearing a grey felt trenchcoat and he had long grey hair and grey mustache and beard.
And then today, the day after the night I had this dream, I saw Last Night in Soho. The very old man in the trench oat in that movie was a Police Detective just like Don Johnson was Detective Sonny Crockett on Miami Vice.
And undercover Police Officers and Detectives do wear trenchcoats!
Incidentally or coincidentally, this morning at the soup line, I saw a grey trench coat hanging on a clothes rack which reminded me then and there of the dream I had ladt night, of the trench oat that Don Johnson was wearing.
Soon, it will be 2022. Before 0 AD years were reckoned in regnal years, for eg the 5th year of the reign of Tiberius etc. Roman also used AUC or Ab Urbe Condita or else years since the founding of Rome. This system is still used in Japan.
In the dream where I went to a Japanese kitchen and got some slices of sliced giant clam off of a shelf from high up. The slices of a giant clam can be likened to the years of regnal years.
Thursday, December 25
Charlie Sheen was the pilot of a blue round UFO we all rode in. I was surprised at how fast it got to Paris France. Looking over Paris, all roofs were red. Charlie Sheen got into a very elaborate Grey alien costume.
Lord of the Rings. Me and three heroes from Lord of the Rings went I to a wooden house. We were all holding swords. If the sword glowed an orange spot in the center after it was quickly dipped into a fire, it meant that you have a pure heart. My silver sword glowed an orange spot in the center and that means that I have a pure heart! All the other heroes had their swords do the same thing. I saw that my sword was just like theirs as I was the one who dipped his sword last.
